Well, here we are, nearing the end of another year. At this time every year, I like to spend a little time reflecting on the year passed and looking at all it's facets ... Embracing each moment. Each success, each failure, the happy moments and the sad ones. Looking at it all with an open mind, a vulnerable heart, and a complete willingness to take away the lessons that each instance was meant to teach me.
This year I learned:
- That I must allow my children to find their own way. My way might work for me, but that doesn't mean it will work for them.
- That as fabulous and amazing I know my kids to be, it means absolutely nothing if they can't see it for themselves. My mom heart witnessed MANY moments this year when my kids realized for themselves the wonderful people I ALWAYS new them to be.
- That I am absolutely willing to fiercely protect my family... Their hearts, their spirits, and their health. Even if the cost is great.
- That what other people think of me, is really none of my business.
- That my kids really do enjoy each others company. Hearing my kids say "I love you" to each other, completely illicit one of the greatest feelings on the planet.
- That it is OK to say 'No' to the things you do not want in your life, and how that makes it easier to say 'Yes' to the things you do.
- That times of 'quiet' are essential, each and every day.
- That people show love in a variety of ways... and if you look back, you will probably see it has always been there.
- That support, grace, dignity, and courage is alive, well, and thriving in the hearts of her lifelong dearest friends. Cancer never stood a chance.
- That marriage is tough, blended families are no picnic, but ALL things worth having, are absolutely worth working for.
- That my marriage is completely based on pure love, adoration, and respect. That there is NEVER a time when either of us sets out to intensionally hurt the other, and that the most heart healing words one can ever hear is a heartfelt "I am so sorry."
- That letting go of old pain, and releasing parts of ourselves that have been holding us back - in a sacred way can be extremely profound and freeing.
- That every day I open my eyes, I am SO very blessed by all the goodness that surrounds me.
My word for 2012 was 'Fly'. Looking back, 2012 offered me many opportunities to spread my wings. I can honestly close my eyes on Dec 31, 2012, and know I served my word well.
When I wake on Jan 1, 2013, my new word will be 'Calm'.
2013 is the year meditation and yoga. It is the year of honouring myself enough to let go of more of what I don't want to have in my life to make room for what I do want in my life. It is the year of no gossip, no drama, no absorbing, mirroring, or becoming part of the toxic behaviour of others. It is the year of walking away from things that make me feel ways I do not wish to feel so I can walk towards the things that feel right and peaceful.
It is the year of loving people first, and right off the bat, and still loving them no matter what. It is the year of seeing the good in all people. It is the year of looking for what is right, instead of what is wrong. It is the year of being kind to myself, and taking as many 'Day Ones' as I need to get it right.
It is the year of going where the peace is, and staying there as long as possible. It is the year of knowing the way to peace ALWAYS exists even if you happen to stray from it for a bit. It is the year of allowing what I think be as important to me as what others think. It is the year of always choosing to see the bright side. It is the year of shining a light on the dark places, and facing what is there. It is the year of embracing and rationalizing my fears, then overcoming them. Its the year of more art projects, and an Etsy shoppe.
It is the year that will set the stage for me to continue to live the way that lightens my spirit, puts a smile on my face, and puts peace in my heart.
It is the year of 'Calm'.